What Seeds Are You Watering?

How a journal prompt morphed into a message.

What started off as a journal prompt, "what do I feel most shame about," quickly weaved into something I felt should be shared with those it found its way to.

Shame to me is an experience that leads to regret or an undesirable feeling.

It sits deeply rooted in the heart and grows much like roots do, spreading to the solar plexus (stomach) where it festers. The connection of the roots from these two centers allow the flow of, what resembles oxygenated blood being carried throughout our arteries, however, this flows with disgust, regret, shame, despair; ultimately resulting in an overwhelming loss of worth.

Some would argue that our worth is our value that we bring to this Earth. And when we find ourselves without value, we then feel as though we are nothing ... we have nothing. This leads us down the road and right into the rabbit-hole titled: scarcity and lack mindset. These beliefs now fully engrained in our subconscious, deeply rooted and flowing throughout our entire being, perpetuates fear.

When we live in scarcity and lack we become incredibly fearful:

How will I pay the rent?
How will I purchase groceries?
How will I receive love from my spouse, partner or parent?
How do I meet new people and connect with others?
Hobbies, goals and desires ... what are those?

You see lack, though often associated with money, can surface in multiple ways in our life. As I have dove deeply into my trauma wounds, I have discovered that my inner-child, the younger version of myself, lacked so much: safety, love, affection, nurturing, security, acceptance, needs, and money ... to name a few. Like many others out there, I was faced and presented with the exact opposite ... and then some more (because we can't forget generational trauma - it's a thing).

I have lived an entire childhood in scarcity and lack which only rolled into my early adulthood. Fast-forwarding to my 'now' moment, I have discovered other ways I have called in lack as a way to clear past and generational traumas, alike. I am working deeply to continue discovering ways in which scarcity and lack show up in my life ... it is a seed I wish to no longer water.

You see, fear has no place in my heart.

It's time to reverse ... to find my way back to the first seed planted. But first I must navigate my way through the intertwined roots that have been watered over many many years.

Just remember, the seeds are planted everywhere, it's the ones we choose to water that matter.

Need some support as you navigate your fears? My Rooted In Fear card-deck and activity workbook are wonderful tools to use to support you as you navigate your fears.

If you think a 1:1 call would be more supportive, I can do that too, just book here: Complimentary Connection Call.

I wish you nothing but the best ahead. Remember, pour the water onto the seeds you wish to see grow and bloom.

Thank you for reading,

Candice